life's kinda messed up and somehow it just brings me here. relationship. i doubt i can get into it anymore even though i might need it. but what's the point when it eventually turn out to an heart break again. who's the right one to go with? take the risk now or regret later when u lose the right one? hiya. whatever lurh. dont wanna get involve anymore and think so much about all the nonsense. studies. attachment where? i really duno which direction to proceed. =/ school's starting and i'm left all alone without anyone. all i can do was to tag along with the other clique. hope they would'nt mind. plus, i dont see a point going with the old clique anymore. the link bewteen is broken. work. everyone's leaving. there isnt a point in staying other than for our favourite IC. its never like the same before. just waiting and hanging in there. opportunities kept knocking on my doors. why aren't i grabbing it? friends. i guess without my secondary school clique and work. i cant survive thru this super long holiday. besides that, i'm losing everything in you babe. i wonder if it was a mistake.

memories are killers

somehow..... i seriously miss the times

This is the worst time of my life.
I wonder why must it be me.
Tell me why.

Doing so much, not appreciated.
Everything is a lie.
You are too much.
You say something good here but at the other side, you curse and swear about me.
I really duno you any more.
I didnt know you were like this.
I'm just blind.
Silly, idiot, stupid, dumb to give u a chance to change but infact is giving u a chance to hurt me again.

Thanks for abusing my everything for you.
Sincerly appreciated it.

holidays are here and i am really enjoying myself.
work, play, go out, sleep, eat and use toilet is what i do for this holiday.
best is to sleep for as long as 14 hours daily with good weather and without anyone disturbing me (:

initial plan was to go back to zsb and play in the concert.
but since my section was quite organized with all the parts already.
i didnt wan to rearrange stuffs.
so i decided to back out.

TODAY
wake up at around 2 plus to eat and get ready for work.
working at songs of the sea today (:
very long didnt worked there le.
they give me work at gallery (R5)
everything was okay for me.
daddy mummy went inside sentosa with me too.
they watched the second show while i was working (:

i didnt know there are still readers for my blog (:
kinda supprise when qiu jin tagged me.
the picture also gone liao.
my blog so cui already, and i am lazy to change

anyway, its the start of the 2 weeks holiday!
however, it is counted as the project break instead.
bored~
other den that, it will be working!

TODAY
test was okay, but i stoned at the questions many times and didnt see the question properly until i saw other ppl de script which got explaination.
headache until i need to force something i studied to come out.
perhaps it not enough sleep....

after that went to cvss concert at singapore conference hall with angie.
once again, its the band memborise.
especially at S.C.H where our concert and syf is.
sigh~

THURSDAY
went hui yi's bbq at sentosa yesterday.
ate quite alot despite i am the one cooking.
reached home around 12 plus and was very tired already.
didnt manage to practice stats questions for my test the next day.


TUESDAY
its mefline and bernice's birthday!
however, bernice didnt went mind cafe with us as she got family dinner.
had a great fun at mind cafe without paying a huge amount.
the service was great too.
we bought mefline ben and jerry ice cream as birthday cake and used the candles that will re-light on its own.
games were easy to learn and fun!!!

thats all for this week!